by Mike Bendzela

From preface of Numbers One and Two: Anytime is a good time to take stock of what you think you know, or what you think you have actually learned, but once you have seen two-thirds to three-quarters of your life pass, it would seem rather high time to do so. [. . .] What would I say if, launched into the firmament and finding myself at Heaven’s Gate, St. Peter said to me, “What have you learned, sinner?” So, a few things I think I actually do know, in descending order of certitude, over the course of three articles: evolution, overshoot, determinism.
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I have always been something of a determinist, but I never consciously mulled the issue much. Now, Robert Sapolsky’s book Determined: A Science of Life without Free Will has pretty much dragged me out of the closet: I think it unlikely that we have anything like free will. I’ve only recently learned that the proper term is “incompatibilist,” which is the view that free will is incompatible with the notion of a determined universe, that is, a physical universe where everything has a cause. (But then what caused the universe? God? Which one? I short-circuit here.) That’s about as philosophical as I can stand to get. For me, the issue is simply, If the universe is determined, then human behavior, like that of the macaque, is determined as well. Some big-brained Apes don’t get to carve out a special exemption for themselves just because they like to imagine they exercise “free will” independent of everything else.
“In the cards” is a tired trope, I know, but it works well for this issue. I was surprised to learn that the expression “in the cards” doesn’t come from playing cards but from Tarot. I prefer to look at it in terms of playing cards, though, because a card game denotes being given a limited set of options which you then have to deal with, as it were. Besides, a Tarot-reading neighbor once “read my cards” for me and it struck me as wishy-washy bullshit. I used to really dig playing Euchre, though, years ago.
“Cards” is a vague enough term that any card can represent either genes or environment, nurture or biology, chance, serendipity, stupid luck. These I parcel out into the categories “conditions,” “constraints,” and “contingencies,” through which I’ll show how who I am is all in the cards. This essay, then, will be part book review, part memoir, part blind-ass speculation. Read more »




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Bhen Alan. Three Hundred Thirty Three, 2022.

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